2 years ago, something happened that ensured I entered this hiatus which, in my personal opinion, has lasted for far too long. Hence, I have decided to put an end to it, by rewinding back to the good old days when work was something I enjoyed doing, while spending countless hours looking for good stock and watching good tutorials.
Last week I got a brand-new Wacom Bamboo Fun Medium (A5 size), to celebrate this rebirth. It was something I wanted to have ever since I started college/uni. Back then I didn't have the financial means to support this endeavour, but now, since I got a good paying job to support myself, and because I had had enough of this cobweb shit, I decided to move on. It may be because I've realized that no matter how stupid or retarded the people around me can be, or how fucked up they may act on my behalf, I can't let this get to me, artistically speaking. They got no right to steal away my creativity, my passion & dedication towards what I do. However it may be, I'm starting to notice how much I've missed and perhaps even forgotten throughout these past 2 years. Not working on photomanipulations or anything that involved more than straight tools and nice shiny buttons or passion and implication for that fact, crippled me to such an extent that whenever I wanted to work on a new piece and it came out wrong, I became disappointed in me, and blamed it all on the fact that I've lost my heart to some dumb bitch who fucked me over. In fact that should have had nothing to do with it. My mistake was letting it through to me. Well no more !
Further, I've re-started to train in matte painting and general digital painting, which I had given up on 3 years ago, due to the lack of adequate equipment. But now, I got the tools, the determination and the mind to do it. And by god I will try to get back on my black steed and kick some bad ass like I used to do. How long it may take before I post a art piece I do not know. It all depends on how contempt I am with where I got. I will certainly not post anything just for the sake up keeping up my number of visitors and some other kindergarden shit. I respect myself, my work and my skills. I will not make a fool out of myself, the likes of which wander this promiscuous website.
This goes out to those watching me, to me long-time deviant friends and worthy opponents. I will be back... Soon !
Listening to: http://stream.laut.fm:80/playnetfm
Drinking: Tea & Cofee